Mono

I’ve been off for a week now, and it’s all because I caught a sickness that I’m too old for. The blood work my doctor ordered tested me positive for Mono, an illness that usually affects teen and some younger adults. It’s kind of like the flu, but it also leaves you extremely tired all the time. I haven’t slept so much since I was a teenager (10 hours at night, plus naps during the day), but I wish I could say it was a quality sleep. It’s very disjointed, which you would think would be otherwise. Originally I was hoping to go back to work today, but here I am again, stuck at home, run down.

I feel very frustrated about all this. Actually I feel rather angry about the whole thing. At first it was kinda funny, having what I guess they call the “gross kissing disease” (teens get it from – you guessed it – kissing). But now I feel so frustrated; I’m sick of being tired, and I want so badly to be at work but I’m so drained of energy. I have no idea how I got it and Angel, who is the only one I kiss, doesn’t have it. So for the past week I’ve been staying at home, by myself, tired and bored out of my mind. I’ve watched movies, done some schoolwork (not much to be honest), taken naps, called a few people on the phone and been on Facebook checking for messages that have become a sort of emotional lifeline.

I’ve done a few outings here & there with Angel, including going to church and having supper with Niels & Janice. This has helped my spirits a bit, being with people, but right now I’m feeling as low on emotional energy as I am physically. I feel like I have no control, and I badly want to get back to normal. But apparently Mono in adults can take quite a while to get over, and the thought of spending weeks if not months like this is very unappealing (yes that’s right, Mono can take months to recover from). It doesn’t help that my family doctor’s away this week, so after Angel gets home today I’ll have her take me to the walk-in clinic to get another assessment. Maybe they can get the results from the second batch of blood tests I had to get, and then from there figure out how long this will last. I wish I had something cheery and uplifting to write about, but right now not much is bright and cheery for me…