Isolation 101

The light’s finally at the end of the tunnel. This week I got the green light from my doctor to go back towork; glands, liver & spleen are not so swollen now and my energy is slowly coming back. It’ll be part time to start, but I’m already looking forward to just the few hours a day that I’ll get out of the house and actually be around people. After three weeks of resting at home I have been driven absolutely nuts. Even with the odd outing here & there, with a few offers to come get me & go for coffee, I’ve felt a keen sense of isolation. One of the things that I have heard people say to me is, “Take the time to be with God and ask Him what He’s saying to you in your current circumstance.” Well the only thing I’ve heard from God (or maybe it’s the Mono) is GET SOME SLEEP!

Actually if there’s one lesson that I’ve learned in Isolation 101 is my need for people. I live with a strange paradox, where on the one hand I shield myself from people but on the other hand I’m a people person. I used to have this pipe dream where I’d live in a cabin out in the woods. I’d live off the land & have all the comforts of home, but I would have complete solitude. I don’t have that pipe dream anymore and any chance of it coming back has been blasted out of the water. I definitely could not live without human contact. They say that the worst thing you could do to a prisoner is put him in solitary confinement. I don’t know what it would be like to be left in complete isolation but the little taste of it this past 3 weeks is quite bitter thank you very much. It’ll be so good to get back to normal and actually blog about something interesting for a change. The only problem is that I need to live a more interesting life in order to do that…